While I was doing spring cleaning for my emails, I read through a few emails sent by Cynthia in the past. I realised that we were very close to breaking up in the midst of November 2005 to January 2006. I do not recall what happened but I am certain that the reasons are very likely to be childish and immature. Reflecting back, a thought was always on my mind whenever something bad was brewing in my relationship, was I in this relationship for the sake of companionship.

Companionship it was as we had accompany each other from late 2006 to mid 2008 without much trouble. However, everlasting was never possible as predicted by me. Being the typical accountant, I was thinking of the returns of this relationship.

We are not as happy as we used to be in the past. Now, it seems that we can easily have a much better conversation with friends with jokes in the conversation. I had also predicted that couples usually have less things to talk about due to restriction in certain topic.

I have the feeling of being used in this relationship. Especially when I got my motorbike! Although it had shorten my travelling time to get to her home, it still takes 30 minutes. A round trip would already take 1 hour. You should feel privileged instead of abusing the fact that you can get a more convenient form of transportation and it is getting more annoying as time passes.

I also get jealous easily and I am jealous of the fact that you care about a dog more someone who has been in your life for 3 years. Back to the topic of happiness, you once said that Oscar is the ONLY one who could make you feel happy. So I guess I am not needed any more?

I wish to offer you as much support as you offered for me while I took my O Levels. I would remain quiet and supportive throughout your journey. I can offer advise and a listening ear when you want to voice out your frustration. I would try to refrain from any acts that would caused you to be emotional unbalanced as I believe that exams would be done the best when an individual is both physically and emotionally healthy.

P.S.
Buying the water bottle for me was one of the most thoughtful things that you had done in our relationship... Thanks...