I'm saving this post as a draft. Maybe 5 months on or so, I will just publish this post maybe after December or March. Why? Maybe this period is the time for me to experience all the disappointment which I had felt for the past 3 years.

Somehow, some way or another, I feel that you are not the one who is able to provide me with happiness. What I had desired for 3 years how much was given to me? Material wants, intangible wants, emotional wants?

Maybe I can say that I am a greedy person. What I have given, I demand something in return. But surely, after what that I had already given, I deserve more than the treatment I am currently receiving.

And then again? Why am I having such thoughts? There is actually someone who practically place herself at my doorsteps confessing her feelings to me and hoping that I can be with her. I rejected her approach. I had been unfaithful in the past and I promise in order to maintain my relationship, I shall be unfaithful no more and that was exactly what I did.

All along, I knew that given my calibre, I could easily get someone better than you. This was what that had been told by many of my peers. But I was not influence by these comments! Foolishly or naively, all continue to offer my love to you with all my heart. But, to a certain degree, happiness was lacking in this relationship although I could tell that you really love me with all your heart as well.

I'm sure by this time, you already know that I always ranked happiness as my no.1 priority in a relationship. So what for continue on a relationship when there isn't happiness?

So, with this piece of statement, I made a decision. If I were to be disappointed one more time, a break-up is definitely one of my options. I'm not unreasonable to the extent that once I got disappointed then its over. For the upcoming two special ocassions for the both my birthday and our 4 year anniversary. Maybe this will be the day to make or break our relationship.

Once I publish this post, I will inform you.