Recently, something keeps coming into my mind. It is cars and motorcycle. I cant wait to get my liscence so that I can drive a 4 wheel or a 2 wheel on the road. Whatever it is, it sure beats taking public transport. I thought about the pros and cons for both cars and motorcycles and I feel having a motorcycle is more appropriate for me. I know it is dangerous to be riding a motorcycle but compare it a car, the expenses per month is definitely alot cheaper. The maintainace is cheaper, the petrol is cheap and the COE is cheaper. Plus I can easily get a motorcycle for less than $5K. However, my mother is strongly against this idea. I pleaded her for an entire day and she still refuses to allow me to own a motorcycle. Another matter which i do not like about motorcycle is that i have to wear a helmet. Wearing a helmet means i can no longer style my hair to the spikely or messy looks anymore. But I have a good news! My mother said that she will buy a 2nd hand car for me after I obtain my driving license. Hopefully, she will provide for the petrol cost too. Haha... Am I asking too much from her?

Something else went through my mind yesterday... I felt scared... Extremely scared in fact... I am worrying that I cant meet up with my own expectation. I felt that everybodies' expectation on me is so high that it is suffociating me. I feel pressurize. What will my future be like if i am just a junior accountant earning small bucks everyday? I want to make it big time in whatever job which i am working. However, making it big indirectly mean that I have to at least get a degree. At my current rate, I am getting more Bs than As. How on earth can i get to university with all those grades? I do not understand why i am so fearful of failing to meet up with my expectation. I used to be so confident to a stage where i am complacent. I am scared. I want to do my best but i cant seem to have the will. I do not understand why i am scared but i just got this feeling suddenly. I am afraid of my future. I want my mother to live the rest of her life in comfort after i graduated. I want to be successful myself. Oh.. Someone else save me.