Recently, something keeps coming into my mind. It is cars and motorcycle. I cant wait to get my liscence so that I can drive a 4 wheel or a 2 wheel on the road. Whatever it is, it sure beats taking public transport. I thought about the pros and cons for both cars and motorcycles and I feel having a motorcycle is more appropriate for me. I know it is dangerous to be riding a motorcycle but compare it a car, the expenses per month is definitely alot cheaper. The maintainace is cheaper, the petrol is cheap and the COE is cheaper. Plus I can easily get a motorcycle for less than $5K. However, my mother is strongly against this idea. I pleaded her for an entire day and she still refuses to allow me to own a motorcycle. Another matter which i do not like about motorcycle is that i have to wear a helmet. Wearing a helmet means i can no longer style my hair to the spikely or messy looks anymore. But I have a good news! My mother said that she will buy a 2nd hand car for me after I obtain my driving license. Hopefully, she will provide for the petrol cost too. Haha... Am I asking too much from her?

Something else went through my mind yesterday... I felt scared... Extremely scared in fact... I am worrying that I cant meet up with my own expectation. I felt that everybodies' expectation on me is so high that it is suffociating me. I feel pressurize. What will my future be like if i am just a junior accountant earning small bucks everyday? I want to make it big time in whatever job which i am working. However, making it big indirectly mean that I have to at least get a degree. At my current rate, I am getting more Bs than As. How on earth can i get to university with all those grades? I do not understand why i am so fearful of failing to meet up with my expectation. I used to be so confident to a stage where i am complacent. I am scared. I want to do my best but i cant seem to have the will. I do not understand why i am scared but i just got this feeling suddenly. I am afraid of my future. I want my mother to live the rest of her life in comfort after i graduated. I want to be successful myself. Oh.. Someone else save me.

It had been a long time since I last blog... Wow.. my blog is really rotting like hell... maybe i shld just ditch this blog... My loyal blog readers, how about it?

Okay... Time for redemption. The reasons why i didn't blog is as follows...
1) There has been alot and alot of homeworks... and i never seems to be able to complete all of them.(Maybe I always been doing them at the last minute)
2) World Cup Fever!!! Because of this onece in every 4 years event, I had not been sleeping enough. So I usually sleep in the afternoon(the time I usually do my HW and blog)
3) Basketball!!! My first love... Other times when i am not studying or sleeping, I had been playing basketball. I usually played 2 or 3 hours once i touch the ball(further explains why the lack of time to blog)

Let me think what happened recently before I start blogging. Oh ya... firstly, it is about the world cup. It is a kelong World Cup!!! The referees seems to just flash a yellow card casually and the players being booked for the slightest of contact. Penaties given without second thoughts. To make matters worse, I am quite irritated with the fact that every match which I watch is boring and yet when I did not watch, the matchs were always exciting. Although neither of my favourite teams got into the finals, I am still quite glad. Reason being, my guesses were mostly accurate. This is the luck when I get when I am not gambling... Haiz.. Must gamble during the next world cup.

In this paragraph, i shall present a piece of good news. Hope my readers will feel happy for me. I am going to receive a award for "Outstanding Performer For GCE O Level". I haven submited my acknowledgement form yet. Hopefully, i will remember to post it or deliver it myself to the school to save postage money. Here, i am going to urge or appeal or anything to my readers... Can you all come to school on 8 August??? I will be back in school on that day and I do not want to go there alone... Anybody? Please please? Lend your support or take it as a chance to go back to secondary school to remember the good old times we had together. There is another award in my poly... The "Zest" award... I am hoping i am able to get the award as it will reflect positively on my poly days.

Talking about poly life, I have something to confess... not a sort of confession but is definately not good news. I onli scored 2Bs and a A grade so far for my common tests... Disappointing right? I am aimming for all As de... Looks like i still have a hard time to climb to that level. Oh well... I am not perfect...

Ending here... My english is getting lousy... I sense tat i made alot of grammer errors and my vocab isn;t really tat fantasic.. try to improve on it next time... ;p