Without my realisation, 30 days past den to 1 week den to a weekend before my English oral examination. I know my own weakness in my oral and I told Miss Tan about it. She gave me some advices and she emphasised on one point - do not be nervous or everything will go to waste. I was wondering how I am going to overcome my nervousness. I was nervous in my mid-year examination and I was also nervous in my oral practises with Miss Tan. What does it take get rid of my nervousness in front of a examiner which I never seen in my life? All my life, I had not acheived much. My greatest regret is my CCA. I must do well in my academically in order to make up for my disadvantage. I already had two disadvantage as compared to others, my chinese and CCA. I am not being pestimistic but lets face the cruelty of living in this world! Especially living in Singapore where everything is based on meritocracy. I already loss half of the battle but I am not going to give up without a fight! I read an essay today. It mentions about an individual anxiousness in completing his national examination yet fearful of getting the results although everything is over. Isn't human strange? Why will we be pessimist even thought we had done our best and yet those who give up do not seem to worry? I will create my own slogan and put it into my princple : "Only with hard work comes results". I must work hard and not be lazy anymore!